Today, the weather is cold and my heart is crying and bleeding. I dun dare to cry coz I am at home. it is very pain to control the tear from dropping. But I still continue to hold the tears. But I fail, the tears flowed, I pretend I was having flu, just pretend that so I can hide way from my family.

Wad are we now? Still couple? Or friends? Or not even all those? Maybe stranger? I dunno. I dunno to be stranger or even friends with you, do you know? When you reply me with that msg, I was shocked. After I read, tears start to flow. I know this is going to happen. I knew it but I didnt say coz I am well, maybe trying not to face the facts. Or becoz I just love you too much? But do you? You say you love me, I cried again. At least I mean something in your heart. But does it true? I just choose to believe you coz loving someone is to trust him too. So I believe you, I really wish it is true that you say you love me. I cry not becoz of that girl, is becoz of you, you know? I know that girl mean a lot to you, but wad about me? Do I mean more than her or was I just nothing? I dunno, is all in your heart, only you know and nobody else.
I know I cant make you forget her so fast but do you willing to try? If you willing, I willing to give you time, I really do. If you dun willing, den I cant do anything coz this mean I mean nothing to you, totally nothing. And I really will leave you, leave you all of your life. Not becoz I hate you or dun love you anymore, it is becoz I dunwan to you to be so confuse about us.

I just waiting for a confirm answer, do you willing to give me that answer?

Went house downstair voiddeck to cry my heart out. Msg him. I shouldnt have msg him that msg. Cry my heart out like nobody business. :/ Den decide to call someone to talk to coz I keep crying non stop. :/ Scroll my phone, dunno want call who. And I decided to call Kaineng. LOL. Also dunno why want call him. But I call him is a right thing. ^^ He keep console me, talk a lot of craps and sing songs (although not whole song), and makes me laugh. ^^ Thanks yea, Kaineng!! ^^Y

After finish chatting with him on phone, I went home. Use computer. bla bla bla. People start to console me. Thank ppl! ♥

And I want post about wad my er zi, Renald had console me with his naggy words. xD Below is wad he had told me. It is so meaningful! (:

maybe After this You will learn to be strong
Or its just a learning
progresss.
or Maybe God Wants you To know Theres Someone Thats more Worth
Giving Your Love Too Up Ahead in ur Journey?

haaa Sometimes.. By falling we
could actually stand up.
Really Reach up and see the world
So Dont dwell
about the past
cause TOMORROW WILL BE BETTER!
IT WILL DEFINATELY BE!

Haa!(: No lar! Thats What i usually say to myself! Lesson 101! LOLS
haa
Well haa Miracle Will happen
When You Dont Think Of What You Wan Them to
happen
Ahya means! Miracle will only happen Only when U Dont Think Of What
You Actually Desire For.
And Its Shows Result.

One day u Will Just go
Hey Miracle Do Happen
(:
so For now SMile
So Stop Thinking! And Just
Continue on Miracle Will Definatly make a great impact in ur life
Till then.
Smile All the way Dont Fred About Anything Clear Your Mind! Concentrate on
O's
And Well Maybe Thats What god Wans You to Do For Now maybe Theres Will
be A Reward After ur o? A Miracle That You Always Hope For
yes You Can Cry
But Until the final tears Tell urself till My Last Tear Fall I will Forget All
The Bad Memories And make it Flow Away With my tears
Once u stop
thats
The time u Are really For A New Beginner A Stronger Girl That Ready To overcome
any problems or Circumstances From Then On(:

So this is wad he had tell me. A lot uh? But dun you think is very meaningful? (: This is wad he heard from CHC, hmmm, City Harvest Church. He recommand me this to go his cell group and join them to become their family. ^^ He say till I feel like joining sia. :D I will consider it man! :D Maybe I should give it a try. (: He really good at consoling ppl yea. hahaha. Renald, mummy here want tell you, you must study hard hors! If you want, we can go study tgt. ^^ Thank for everything you said. Thank yea! Beloved er zi!! ^^ ♥

So I am feeling better now.
Thank to (in order) : Kaineng, Mandi, Huixuan, Charmaine, Lorenzen, Renald and William for asking me whats wrong. ^^ ♥

But specially BIG thanks to Kaineng and Renald for consoling me for so long. ❤

♥; Simply just like this.
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